Challenged

Challenged I have been lately.  Sometimes the Universe has a way of making a point -- with emphasis.  There are certain beliefs I hold very strongly.  For example, that things happen for a reason.  And the corollary:  things happen at the precise time they do also for a reason.  That belief was tested very strongly yesterday.  No need to go into details because they don't really matter.  Where I am sitting right now I can't see the big picture, and that bugs me.  But I just have to trust that there really is a big picture.

I remember having the point made before:  Do you really believe what you say or don't you?  I tell other people over and over (so much so that they probably think I'm a droid) that it all happens for a reason.  Here I am with something hurtful going on -- so, do I believe it or not?  Yes, I really, really do.  I'm letting go of the feelings and asking for the lesson that I'm supposed to learn.  At some point it will probably dawn on me and I'll figure it out (humility, grace under fire, patience, stillness, etc.)  There are lot of lessons I'm still working on.

I thought I was going to write about something else today.  I even had a title picked out and written when I started this posting.  I planned to discuss a completely different thought today but once I got going, I realized maybe that should wait for another day -- when the time is right.  Just like my challenge yesterday, I don't yet understand what it was about, but I'm certain it was for my own good and I'm probably making a big deal out of absolutely nothing.  Now that I've changed the perspective there is no anger, fear, hurt or anything else anymore.  Just a readiness to move on down the road -- because it really is about the journey and making a contribution along the way. 

If I get bogged down with petty nonsense, my contribution is also bogged down and no one benefits.  Okay, deep breath.  I'm back to focusing on love and compassion.  And I'm grateful that I have people who love me and remind me to get back up.